I’m now 39 weeks pregnant – it’s almost time. The crazy thing is, this whole pregnancy I’ve been saying ‘I’m not ready, I’m not ready’ – and I’ve meant that in so many ways. Mentally – I found it difficult to imagine how I would cope with a newborn and a toddler, how much my life would change etc. And then in the literal sense – I actually didn’t have my bags packed, or a place for the baby to sleep or a car seat…but that’s all sorted now – thanks in large part to family and friends 😉 So, the crazy thing? Is that now that it is time…I am actually ready! I feel like I’m as prepared as I’m going to be.
I’ve been thinking this week that I wish I had been blogging when I was pregnant with Devin because there are things happening that I do not remember happening the first time at all – and maybe they did but life before Devin is just something I do not remember at all. I kept a pregnancy journal for Devin but for some crazy reason I didn’t fill in the last few weeks of it!
Here’s me in the attic, trying to find said diary….
Here’s what’s been happening for the last few weeks…
36+4 Along with the usual Braxton Hicks, I started getting period like cramps, the next night it was worse – like a hot burning pain and then had it on off for the next week or so. The cramps usually happened at night and sometimes in the morning but only a few times during the day. I actually asked them to check me for a UTI at my 38 week check-up – it wasn’t one though!
The other thing I started feeling was the intense PRESSURE. I have been feeling pressure for months because of the weight of him, but this was a brand new level. At the appointment it turned out that his head had dropped right down – so that’s obviously what I’d been feeling.
Heartburn is back with a vengeance. It actually hurts to eat…it feels like a stomach ulcer to be quite honest…Gaviscon is not doing its job! ARGHHH! So milk is my new best friend 😉
At 38 weeks I also found out I am GBS positive – so I’ll have to go straight to the hospital which isn’t what I had been planning but it can’t be helped!
Emotions running high….
I have been an emotional wreck. I’ve had moments where I just burst out crying and I know it’s just hormones but I still can’t stop. I’ve been scared, anxious, worried, stressed… everything. I’ve been feeling guilty for Devin – he won’t be an only child any more – he won’t have our undivided attention. I wonder will he be jealous? Will he feel like he has lost something? I’ve actually calmed for the moment now
I nested months ago! I went on mad cleaning sprees – I hired upholstery and carpet cleaners – I washed perfectly clean unused blankets just because they hadn’t been washed since the last time they were washed! I thought the nesting was over for me…
This week…I deep cleaned our bathroom….toothbrush on the grouting style…THREE DAYS IN A ROW! Nutty!
39 Week Check-up…
This week baby measured 41+1 …. So he’s another lump! Unfortunately there is too much amniotic fluid and it seems like baby might not be able to fully engage…but he is trying to! So I was told to walk….squat…and basically do anything I can to get that baby’s head to engage! I’m booked in for a scan at 40 weeks and they may think about getting him out themselves! SO…I am hoping he manages to do his bit this week some time! *fingers crossed*
Here’s Devin and me out for one of those walks 😉
That’s my SUPER LONG update for the last few weeks! Thanks for reading 😉